“my G’d, the soul You have placed within me is pure”
the innate quality of hod is anavah, humility, a sense of restricting oneself in the face of the magnificence of so many other things in the Creation. wiser people, bolder people, power in nature….and me, just me? not so much. well, if such humility combines in gevurah, with its innate strength of restriction, severe justice and power in limitation, you have a hard veer into drawing away from engagement in the world.
and that is never any good.
couple it with the weight of memory that touches all of us as we step into the darkness of Yom haShoah, and you begin to see how evil can find a foothold in a judgement of despair. we are not metaphorically just dust and ashes, but we are the children, the small remnant of those who were made dust and ashes. this could be a powerful inducement to withdrawal from engagement in a murderous world.
but that is never, never, never any good.
we do well to remember that hod also has a radiant power side that can ally to the just power in gevurah. double strength….the power to rise, a spirit phoenix from the dust and ash. rise, as did Aharon, from his stricken silence upon the inexplicable death of his sons Nadav and Avihu.
we have the phrase ‘i who am but dust and ashes’ directly from Avraham Avinu, who shows us the way to radiate beauty from seeming weakness:
“Avraham answered and said, ‘behold, i have ventured to speak to G’d, i who am but dust and ashes. suppose 5 of the 50 righteous are lacking….will you destroy the whole city for lack of 5?” (Genesis 18:27-33)
Avraham strove after that small remnant of the righteous that can and will bring redemption. the bargain struck at the time of sodom and amorah was 10, simply 10 righteous and the whole would live to repent. but some have suggested that Avraham stopped too soon. it took that other humble master, Moshe Rabbeinu, to plead for an entire People in which there were fewer than 10 righteous now and then. the humblest among humans and one who is but dust and ashes can accomplish much…..this is the radiance of hod, the beauty of hod in justice.
but perhaps we need only focus on 1. for we pray each morning as above…’my G’d, the soul You have placed within me is pure’…and that alone is enough to make us more than mere dust and ash. we are worthy by reason of innate purity from the Source of All. G’d’s choice therein makes us more. if i am not for myself, who will be for me? well, the Holy One of Israel, for starters.
and if we rise for ourselves as well, we can make more righteousness with the soul we are given. if there are 10 righteous in a sea of antisemites, yet will we seek to fix it with righteousness. if there is but 1 righteous remaining, we will remember that the entire world was Created for that 1….and regrow the way from there.
‘the neshamah You have placed within me is pure’ and nothing and nobody will prevent me from letting it shine forth. i am of the People that watches evil empires fall….so are you. baruch haShem we know the radiant power of hod in gevurah. consider what has been wrought by but a still small voice….
mussar for hod she b’gevurah
hod-gevurah with another….bein adam l’chaveiro what you do will matter for others. make like Avraham and in spite of the odds, act for righteousness. take a deep breath of optimism, and exhale all the despair.
hod-gevurah with yourself….bein adam l’atzmo there is power in the gratitude of hod as well. G’d has given you a pure soul. give thanks for it, and for every wrong you avoid in your own actions (take credit for outdoing your own yetzer hara) and for the avoidance of wrong in the actions of others due to your use of your pure soul to make a difference in the world.
kabbalah for hod she b’gevurah
in assiyah….the world of doing/completion hod-gevurah are both sefirot of the left side of the tree of life, the physical weak-hand side for most. but it is also the strong spirit side, bound in t’fillin. flex your left hand, lift your left arm while still bound, and feel the strength within….the strength secreted away in the left of hod in gevurah.
in yetzirah….the world of feeling/formation another secret strength is the intuitive feeling in our gut. many of us survive today due to the gut feeling of an ancestor who went off to america. be mindfully ready to ‘go with your gut’ today.
in b’riyah….the world of thought/creation b’riyah is the soul level of neshamah in the body. we can either innately sense purity within, or create it without. focus on purity within yourself. can you find the neshamah? praise G’d from it.
in atzilut….the world of nearness to G’d/intuition neshamah, the breathed in/in-breathed soul is the highest level we can directly experience. mind your breath and know that G’d is delivering strength to you through it, for both body and soul. reflect on how near G’d is to you and how G’d is exalted.
kinyan 12 of 48 ways to acquire Torah
Pilpul haTalmidim….Sharp Discussion between Students. there is a time for quiet reflection, and a time to speak out strongly in interpretation. we learn in the aggadah that r’ Hama said, “what is meant by ‘iron sharpens iron’? (Proverbs 27:17). it tells you that just a piece of iron is used to sharpen another piece, so 2 scholars sharpen each other’s mind by fierce discussion of Torah.” acquire yourself a study partner and friend, and go at it!